Slow Dancing

Life is up in the air right now more so than ever. College is ending and myself and everyone around me are all trying to figure out how to be a proper adult. Do we go to graduate school? Do we take a gap year? Do we get a "real" job? What does a real job even look like? And how on Earth are we supposed to pay for everything?

It's times like these that I need to calm down. I need to get back to what is really important in life and trust that everything is going to work out fine. It's times like these that I'm thankful for Spencer and this quirky little thing he likes to do that points me to a bigger picture.

We slow dance.

Whenever I have a day overcome with worry, Spencer can easily see it in my eyes if I haven't already expressed it verbally. He will make me stop whatever I'm doing, pick me up off the couch, and slow dance with me. Now, I'm not talking beautiful ballroom slow dancing; this is more like a swaying hug that might have occurred at a middle school dance. But it is perfect (and way better than middle school).

It's times like these that I am overwhelmed by the tangible piece of God's love that I have standing right in front of me. True love is kind of cool like that. It gives you a little window into the glory of heaven. I can't even imagine something more wonderful than Spencer's love and companionship, but the grace of the Lord makes even that look like nothing. Psalm 46: 10 says "Be still and know that I am God." Now, I guess our slow swaying hug isn't technically staying still, but this reminds me of what the Lord tells us to do. He says to stop what we are doing, throw all our worries away, and be still. Be still and bask in his presence. Be still and lay in his arms. Stop our mind for one second and let it empty of anxiety and be filled with His truth. HE HAS GOT THIS. He always has and always will.

So I find myself at an odd position. I kind of feel like I should be freaking out more; I feel like my mind should be filled with anxiety and worry, but I'm fine. I'm fine because I'm at peace. I'm fine because I know that He has something so massively wonderful in store for me. I'm fine because I'm slowly learning how to be still and know that He is God and He is good. He takes my hand in the dance and leads me slowly to His kingdom. That's all I need.

P.S: Thank you Spencer for showing Jesus to me everyday. You're the most perfect balance in this imbalanced world.