Heavy Heart in Perspective During Christ's Birth

My sweet Papa has been in the hospital for a few days now. His kidneys are not working properly and he has been in a ton of hip/back pain from laying in a hospital bed for many days. My whole family is pretty down.

I try to be the same positive little girl that I've always been in hard times like this. The jokes I've been trying to crack with my papa should be illegal. Today's main one involved me loling because his robe looked like my old Catholic school uniform skirt. Today, though, the heavy heart fell upon me as well as I realized he may be in the hospital at Christmas. I quickly tried to turn things around, though.

I think of all the children with cancer this year who may have spent many holidays in the hospital. I think of all the people in third world countries with illnesses and no medicine to help. I think of Mary giving birth to Jesus in a barn naturally 2000 years ago, seriously is that even possible?

Anyways, I've been trying to put things in perspective. I know that Christ has a plan for my Papa and I personally think it will be for him to return home soon. So many people have reached out to us in prayer and the idea of just surrounding him with that right now makes me feel so blessed in itself. I cannot imagine a life without knowing Christ in times like these.

So my goal for this Christmas is to focus solely on Christ and prayer. I may have been too caught up on presents, Santa, and twinkly lights already but know from now on I'm looking straight to you Lord. Thank you so much for sending your Son. His word, life, and passion will always be almost incomprehensible to me because of the immense beauty they all hold.

My dad and I are currently obsessed with the Christmas song "Strange Way To Save The World". The lyrics completely describe the insanity of Christmas. 


To think of how it could have been
If Jesus had come as He deserved
There would have been no Bethlehem
No lowly shepherds at His birth
But Joseph knew the reason
The love had to reach so far
And as he held the Savior in his arms
He must have thought…

Why me, I'm just a simple man of trade
Why Him, with all the rulers in the world
Why here inside a stable filled with hay
Why her, she's just an ordinary girl
Now I'm not one to second guess what angels have to say
But this is such a strange way to save the world

<3 Merry Christmas!