Rant Time

Of all the things college has taught me, independence has been the strongest. Yes I drive all around a new town, go grocery shopping, and clean my own apartment which is bonkers in itself. I'm talking about a different kind of independence though. Unfortunately, I only made it out of high school with a handful of close friends, so the thought of making friends in college was always incredibly exciting to me. I kind of depended on my boyfriend way too much in high school so he was worried how I would do in college.

I literally blossomed here. I am surrounded by the silliest/ Christ-filled/ awesome girls I could ask for. I am so much more independent now of my boyfriend and I honestly think that has bettered our relationship so much. We can be apart and know that the other is still loving us just the same. I adore my late night hangouts with my roomies, study sessions, and thursday dinner time with my best friend Abby.

What's the point in this blog? Be your own person. Anyone who knows me understands fully how much Spencer means in my life...but being with him 24/7 is never a concern of mine. It's so great that we can be apart and be fully content in it. I know that we live 10 minutes away now but someday (maybe sooner than we think) he will travel the world playing shows. I have to prepare myself for this day and I think I am ready.

God has turned me into a strong independent woman and honestly I didn't ever know if that would happen. My relationship with Spencer doesn't define who I am, but makes me a better person. My relationship with my friends is the same. So girls: be your own person. Your boyfriend may be "the most amazing one in the world" (trust me I feel this way about Spin) but that does not mean that you shouldn't be able to function without him. Live your life regardless of the circumstances.

This is an excerpt from my favorite poem: John Donne's "A Valediction Forbidding Mourning"

Our two souls therefore, which are one,
    Though I must go, endure not yet
A breach, but an expansion,
    Like gold to aery thinness beat.